moved to catgirlangie!

Every single cell in my body is screaming at me to just kill myself right now and? Honestly? I am beyond tempted to do it, if it wouldn’t leave my pets without a proper owner and my friends without a friend.
Okay, it’s story time to add some context:
I finally have my veterinary assistant certification, so now I can finally get a job, but I’ve been looking constantly for jobs in and around this shithole middle of nowhere area that I reside in and either a) no places are hiring, or b) the ones that are hiring need someone with a year of experience working at a veterinary hospital which i (obviously) don’t have, or c) the places that are hiring and do not require prior experience are over 50-100 miles away from where I live and for obvious reasons I cannot afford to make that drive on a daily basis or afford to move. If I wanted to destroy myself and make my psychical and mental wellbeing even worse off than it already it, I could go back to working at the Wegmans that’s 30 miles away but it would likely kill me.
I have bills to pay and my debt that has accumulated from the car and college and credit cards keeps growing (it’s currently at about $30,000 that I owe) and I’m almost out of my money from my savings account so I will no longer be able to make any payments on things.
If I don’t find a job within the next month, I will have to begin selling my pets and my car and everything else (TVs, PS4, etc) in order to pay my bills - and if you aren’t aware, then I should tell you that the only thing that has kept me from comitting suicide already is my pets, they are my everything and I do everything for them and they are my support system and if I have to sell them then there is no point to living anymore.
If I had any talents and/or if my mental and psychical health wasn’t so horrible, I could make a YouCaring or something, but I do not have any talents and my health is deteriorating overall so…
I do not know what to do.
I absolutely hate to have to ask this in this horrible economy, but if anyone could spare anything, even a dollar, it would be an immense help to me and my pets - I just need to keep being able to make the absolute minimum payments for however long it takes me to find a job - which those add up to about $300/month.
I am more than willing to provide details and screenshots from my bank and my accounts to prove what I am saying is not a lie for those that ask for them.
My paypal email is: kayleighduck@aol.com
And, honestly, if you do donate anything and you want a little drabble written - because people giving their well-earned money to me for nothing in return makes me feel ill - my writing is on Archive of Our Own if you’d like to see how I write.